Sunday, August 14, 2005

some things can only be said once.

it's been a pretty long holiday.
with all that travelling, sight-seeing, shopping, music.
to ho chi minh city, amsterdam, maastricht, brussels, helsinki.

my first encounter with jet-lag.
and i definitely do not like it all.
the fatigue and sleeping disturbances makes me one very sensitive and edgy person.
not to mention a very disoriented person too.

i think i know what i'm doing, but in the midst of it, i lose sight of the ultimate goal.
all the distractions and temptations.
all the unwanted attention.
and i break down.

i'd like very well to be left alone in this battle.
no need for the care and concern.
yes, thank you very much, but i'm really okay.
just frustrates me more when i hv to repeat it again and again.

the inner confusion, anxiety, anger, hurt, frustration.
Time will get rid of it.
perhaps not?
but at least she (yes, i'd like to think of Time as a she) will cover it up for quite some time.
till something triggers it off again.
we'll see how then.

still waiting at 1:14 am

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at 10:05 pm, August 22, 2005 eQuinoxed said...: Hey girl!!! I miss you. (oh wait... do u know who i am???)

I know you prolly wouldn't be missing me lah, but yeah... I miss u... Take care... and I hope u do know who the question (in Italics, at the bottom of the entry) is posted to... It's to you ok??

Leave me a tag yeah? Tk Cr, love ya!

Hehehehe are u even getting this?